Rough Day

I have no excuse for not posting other than I think I'm tired and just bummed out.

Today was the worst day of all so far. I'm actually not much into explaining right now, but felt I needed to update everyone. Today Mom went into Congestive Heart Failure. She has been taken and placed in the hospitals ICU that they have. She doing much better than this morning and I'm told she is out of the woods for now. Her blood pressure was sky high also. They have her on meds for that and lots of lasix to take the fluids off. She was going to get an anxiety med this evening which I have never requested before, but trust me she needed one. She will also be receiving 2 units of blood through the night. Her hemoglobin was down to 8 again. They put in a central line so they would not have to keep sticking her all the time, she is a really hard stick, so that should make it easy.

When the cardiologist was in this evening, he said she was in a major full blown failure. Of course that is her boyfriend and even with the kind of day she had, she perked right up for him. I might have to hire him to take care of her and keep her happy.

As for me, time to be honest. I guess I did ok, but it is the first time when I have been asked if im ok that I have said no. I was not ok, I was a crybaby all day. My eyes hurt really bad right now. I have to be honest and tell all of you I thought she was dying and I could do nothing for her. I had decided that if she stopped breathing, I would tell them to let her go. I guess God isn't ready for her quite yet. It was one of the hardest things I have ever watched. I have to say that the hospital employees tried their best to take care of me. I got lots of hugs and even kisses all day long and people coming to check on me and Mom. Everyone from aides and nurses, some of the kitchen staff who I see everyday, the speech therapist, her PT therapist, Joe the night housekeeper and even a hug from a doctor. I think we might of grown on some of them. So have no doubt, she is taken care of. Her favorite nurse Julie was in ICU today and watched her very carefully and was in there kissing on her. She is having her own problems with a sick father-in-law who has leukemia and is on a ventilator in a Chicago hospital. When she is not working, she is with him.

Also, Wednesday they put in a J tube for Mom. She now has a G and J feeding tube.
She was still aspirating some and this should help being in her intestine. She gets her meds in the G and her feeding in the J.

Please say a prayer for us.

Bunches of Love,
Angela

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